satisfaction

I am not satisfied in my relationship with Christ right now, I wish He was my absolute treasure, something that I desire more than any TV show, computer game, time with my friends, or any other earthly pleasure. I feel the fight to make him my treasure seems so daunting and I still have a selfish fear of losing earthly things. But I am glad I am not satisfied, I hope to be never satisfied, I believe that it is dangerous to be satisfied in my relationship with Christ, I need to be constantly feeling the need to grow. My pursuit of God must be continuous for me to find him.