dissatisfied

I am so dissatisfied with my life right now. I have become someone who I am embarrassed of. I have become lazy, complacent, comfortable. I have always been struggling with things like laziness but right now I feel like it is engulfing me. And When I say I feel comfortable I mean that I am content with the way I live. I hate being content in some ways. I love being challenged. I feel like Christ has called me to live so much differently then I have been. There is a famous saying that says "God comforts the disturbed and disturbs the comfortable." I find myself being a part of the latter category. I miss being daily challenged with deep things about life and God. The days when I am not I don't feel like I have been really living. I have had days were I have wasted every moment of it doing things like playing computer games or aimlessly surfing the Internet. Now I the love Internet because I love being connected to the world and culture. I also love how I can stay up on what is happening in American Christianity through blogs. But I have not used this tool in moderation. I have been involved in the world of online computer gaming and I feel like that stuff just sucks your time away and leaving me feeling so empty. I feel like I have not been making wise use of my time (Ephesians 5:15-16)


"Awake, O sleeper,
and arise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you."
-Ephesians 5:14 ESV