pounded with truth

Today was kinda fast-paced spiritually for me. I ended up inadvertently listening to the same sermon from my senior pastor twice. But that was awesome because the first time I was writing everything down and the second time I got to listen very intently. He talked about scripture and its importance and how it is the life-blood of christians and my church. I went and heard him preach the 1st service then I went to high school group during the 2nd service. In high school group we talked about how important it is to be humble and unselfish in our relationship with others and the challenge presented was to start putting others first just in the youth group to start out so that it would carry to other parts of life. This was something that really convicted me and got me thinking about how amazing that would look if my youth group was composed of people who loved each other in a Christ-like way. The other thing that went along with that was our group being a group that just has plenty of spiritual conversations, this also convicted me and made me think about what it would be like if we could just ask people what God is teaching them every week or something. I began to think about ways for me to love others and look out for them spiritually. So then I went to 3rd service expecting to hear our other pastor preach but it turned out that he was not there today so I heard the same sermon again but like I said, it turned out good after all. Also, during the sermon God began to convict my heart about how I lack in loving my own family and how my pride is getting in the way of me being a spiritual leader in my family. I began to realize that my journey learning to love others needs to start with my family. I need to find a way to get past my selfishness and put those in my family first. This is a task that seems ever daunting.

So it is not even noon yet and already God is hitting me with so much. My afternoon is still a whirlwind that might take some time to figure out. I was spending time reading scripture, listening to scripture and also listening to some sermon podcasts because my ipod is finally working again. I also spent some time just allowing myself more and more to listen to God and hear his voice because that is a major thing he has been showing me over the past few days. I have begun to grow more intimate with God as every day passes and it is too amazing for words, I don't think I could ever put it in words if I i spent my life pondering this relationship. On thursday my senior pastor talked a bunch about how the goal of the christian is the get to the point where you are in constant communion with God and you can recognize his voice. Then yesterday I listened to a sermon that was basically about the same thing. So God has been just pounding that truth in me and showing me how he wants me to know him intimately. It has been amazing, I suddenly have a renewed sense of hunger for God that I haven't had in a long time. I hope to keep this hunger and to keep growing closer and closer to my God who I love.