why am I content with cheap pleasures?

I get so frustrated with myself sometimes. I am continually contented with mediocrity and laziness. I know in my heart that life is so full, that I have been set free through Christ. Yet I continually find myself just drifting, being happy and satisfied with cheap pleasures. I have partaken in the joy that is brought through pursuing my God, yet I tend to choose laziness when I know that my diligence to follow Jesus brings great reward. O How it puts spring into my step when I am seeking to understand with my mind an infinite God. To behold his mysterious beauty is the greatest pleasure I can think of. How often I forget the happiness when I can be part of someone else seeing God's beauty. All of this requires me to have a soul that seeks God until he is found and never gives up. I need to be more earnest and eager to see my God. I hate it when reading my bible becomes a chore but without it I become starved for powerful truth very quickly. I love it when the bible comes alive and cuts like a sword, I love when it brings tears of joy to my eyes, I love it when when it sends my head spinning, and I love it when it leads me to a place where I can just be in awe of God. My soul mourns for those who have not seen the living God yet I often catch myself living just like them. The difference is that I know the overflowing joy and they don't. I have no excuse, I am simply content with what I know to be the lesser path.

I am trying out mobile blogging so this is my first post that i am typing on my phone. This way i can blog when i am not at home.

the reality of hell

Dan Kimball summarizes his sermon on hell

reckless pursuit

Running earnestly after you
a glorious adventure,
captivated by mysterious beauty.

Scared of where you will lead me
yet not wanting to go back.

I learn to delight in you alone
the cheap pleasures I once sought
no longer satisfy.

It seems too good to be true
but my soul is finally alive

This is what I was made for
the reckless pursuit of you
the God whose love I do not deserve